So many decisions, what to do...

So working full time has helped me realize how much I enjoyed being a stay at home and how immensely I miss it. I am always so tired and worn out after work and keeping up with the house is amazingly more difficult than I thought. On top of that I spend over half my income paying for a nanny, she's awesome, don't get me wrong, but it feels like I mostly work to pay for a nanny.  Now to add on top of this I apparently miss understood how my insurance works and it's not $250 a month, it's $250 a pay period. I know insurance is pricey, but between insurance and nanny I'll only be bringing in $100. I don't know what to do. I would love to quit my job and save us the money on the nanny, then I could get a part time job in the evenings or on Chad's days off and would make up for the income I was bringing in. But then we'd have to find another private insurance. If this doesn't make sense, that's okay, it's very confusing to me too.

Ideally Chad would put in his resume to several companies and get hired doing computer work making a little more than he is now and insurance. 

Lots of prayers over here for us please. We need to make a decision, a good one and relatively soon. Please help us to be able to know what to do and where to go from here.

Much Love,

Jenna

Bedtime Blog: Friends

I have some amazing friends, and am so glad they want to be my friends! I have met a lot of awesome people in all our travels with the military. The majority of people are short lived acquaintances, but every so often we make friends that are permanent.  They may not permanently stay in our physical lives, but they stay in our hearts and we keep in touch.

I am SO grateful to all the wonderful friends who have helped us along this journey of life, you have made it so much more exciting and fun. You've let me cry on your shoulder, call you at midnight, text you during child birth, vent to you when you are in a crisis too.  You've been there for me through good and bad and love me all the same. I hope I have been there for you as much as you have for me, I love you all so much.

Thank you for your time, your love, your compassion and your help. I'm always here for you no matter where I go, my phone is always on and I am always listening. I love you all, mwah!  <3

We're Moving!

So this is just a short post, haven't posted anything in a super long time and felt like bringing everyone up to date.  We have lived out our sentence of 4 years in Georgia and are now saying so long to both the area and the military and moving home to Utah! So looking forward to my kids being around grand parents and family as well as having snow and cooler summers. (that was personally how I knew I was ready to move home was when I was missing the snow!)

However since we are going home without anything major figured out besides that the first objectives are a permanent place to live and a job to support that, there is a little stress. But I have faith in my husband, and the Lord, and know we have family nearby to help with kids if need be, so I'll survive.

This move just snuck up on me so fast, I just realized I have a week to pack up suitcases before they pack up the house, I am so glad this will be our last big move, it's hard emotionally and stressful. It doesn't help that this is the longest we have lived anywhere in his entire enlistment, in 4 years you set up a lot of roots and actually get major sense of home. I have so many memories in this house, and so many amazing friends and awesome neighbors, this by far will be the hardest move. I'm not a person who is good at goodbyes, I am too emotional and just become a blubbering wreck. Usually I find it easiest to push back and avoid the sadness of moving until I'm moved and caught up in the excitement of a new place, but I have too much here for that to be so easy this time around.  Plus we aren't just moving, we are leaving the military lifestyle to join the ranks of the regular world, and surprisingly enough that scares me. I never planned nor wanted to be a military wife, but for the past 6 years that is all over known.

So please world, if nothing else, be a little gentle with me, I feel like a new fawn just learning to walk, civilian life seems new and foreign, and I am a little frightened. But I have my beautiful children, a loving, determined husband and a mostly supportive family. As long as we've got each other we can conquer anything.